Sorry I haven’t posted in a while. I’ve had a very busy week.
On Monday I had a La Leche League meeting, which I hosted myself because my co-leader’s middle child was sick. I ended up leaving my kids at her place to entertain the older one (who is Daughter’s age) – they all know each other well. The risk of them picking up the middle one’s bug was less frightening to me than trying to run a meeting with my kids there (a four hour stint when setup and cleanup is factored in).
On Tuesday I worked out of the home for a client at the local University. Kids were with an on-call Nanny who turned out to be wonderful (with one grandma out of the country and the other just having a pacemaker put in I was suddenly way short of child care). On Thursday I was away for a half-day teaching a lecture (my co-leader again babysat) and then on Friday I was working all day (Husband had the day off) and then went straight from work to see The Business of Being Born (awesome film, by the way).
I have *really* missed my children! I am so not cut out to be a full-time working mother. By Thursday morning I was not wanting to leave for work and by the weekend I was ready to quit everything. But…I do like my work when it’s only occasional (this was one of those everything-came-up-at-once weeks) and my usual six days per month is plenty for me.
Tomorrow I’m off for another full day of work and my heart isn’t in it. I still miss my kids from last week. Son came down with a cold today and was just wanting to snuggle with his mama. If he’s that sick tomorrow I can’t leave him with a Nanny. Not just because it wouldn’t be fair to her, but mostly because sick kids want their mama and I want to be there for him! If I send her home it’s $54 out of my pocket. I’m hoping Son will be perky in the morning and I’ll just come home from work a bit early when the afternoon blahs set in. I also have one more lecture this Thursday morning and then I’m done until September.
I won’t deny that the extra money is nice. But it’s weeks like these that confirm in my mind that being home with my children is a Gift and I’ve made my choices wisely. It also reaffirms my commitment to Living Simply – the rat race is not for me!